Trina Piirainen
October 17th
1972 - April 11th 2000
Trina
is the most special person I have ever
met. If you met her you couldn't help but love her she was just had that
about her. Her true passions were kids and animals. Several of her
dreams were to be a teacher, and or to open a no kill animal shelter. I was
truly blessed with her love she gave to me.
It was 1996 and I was twenty I first met
Trina
online. What brought us together was a computer game called the
highlands if you can believe that. However we were drawn to each other.
I can remember playing with her all day at work then after she got home late
into the night. We had talked on the phone a few times and tons over the mud and
on occasion shamelessly flirted with each other. I told her she should
stop by and meet for coffee or hot chocolate for her sometime. At the time I was
in
Portland
Maine
and she was in
Beverly
Mass
, and used to drive through on her to visit her
parents in So Paris Maine. It was on
March 12, 1997
she asked me if I wanted a visitor I said yes.
Then I kicked my roommates out of the house and went on the mad dash of cleaning
up the apartment then took a shower and even shaved. I remember when the
doorbell rang that I was so nervous. She was wearing a brown leather
jacket and a pair of jeans I do believe, but what I remember was looking into
her beautiful blue eyes as I came down the stairs. A warm feeling washed over me
and my heart quickened. We put in a movie I do believe it was brave heart but we
wound up sitting there talking through the whole thing. It
was nice.
During
that spring and summer we were inseparable. At the beginning of summer we
had rented our dream apartment in an old mill that was right on the
Nezinscot
River
and we lived and loved. Our love burned so
brightly for each other that everyone could see it when we looked at each other.
I remember proposing late one hot august night even to my own surprise I
hadn’t planned on doing it. I just
wanted to spend the rest of my life with this girl and I planned on dating
someone for at least a year or more before I even thought about proposing.
Just laying there looking into each others eyes and feeling all the love
around us I knew I wanted to be with her the rest of our lives and it just
slipped out that night. I remember she looked back at me with that look
she only gave me in her eyes and she asked "what did you say?” It
took a second and I repeated myself. Then she asked you mean now or
someday like years from now? (I had told her my views of waiting of getting
married before we even met chatting on the computer) I said soon.
Then she looked at me with such a smile and love in her eyes and she said yes.
We
were married on September 20th 1997 in So. Paris Maine.
We
had planned on getting married on the mountain that we crossed getting home but
it had rained for several days before Wedding so we thought the climb up the
mountain might be a bit much for some people and got married at our second pick
at the gazebo at the town park. It
was rather funny being late to our own wedding.
As we was getting dresses Trina’s Dress witch was worn by a aunt some
decades before zipper teeth disintegrated when it got zipped up. Being
a Saturday we were sent to a seamstress some 40 miles away from the bridal store
in town. She saved the day and with
a new zipper for the dress and we made it back in time before people thought we
had run off. We spend our honeymoon in the White Mountains, New
Hampshire.
Some
of my fondest memories of her were the way her face used to light up in the
spring when I would spy and early patch of wild daisies growing and bring them
home to her. They were truly her
favorite flower and I loved to see that smile. She would say that she didn’t
need to do the “he loves me” “he loves me not” with the petals because
they all said “he loves me”. Then
she would wrap her arms around me and give me a great big kiss.
Around dinner time in the summer evening we could see the trout start
jumping up and down the river that ran directly besides building we had an
apartment in. I used to get out my
fly pole and go wade into the river while she would sit out on the porch
overhanging the river with a book she was reading. Each
time I would catch a fish I would look up and she would always be looking down
smiling at me. Then there was “presents”, she loved them no matter how
little they was it was just the fact that I had thought of her when I saw
something. I do think however her
favorite was nutty bars.
We
had a lot of fun. One of the first places we explored together was
Fort
Williams
and
Two
Lights
State park
in Cape Elizabeth Maine.
I remember sitting there at
Fort
Williams
that night we went there holding each other and
talking for hours under the stars. We
was sharing everything that night opening ourselves like neither of us had
before to each other. Without doubt
that night I knew we fallen in love with each other.
During our short time together we visited most of the old forts of
Maine
. One
of our favorite ones was Fort
Knox
in Prospect
Maine
we went there a couple of times.
We
daydreamed a lot and imagined ourselves in a house that I had build sitting out
on our front porch watching the sun go down while I kids were playing in the
back yard. We had a lot of those
from that one to being old and gray with the house all to ourselves again.
When I was with her I never felt so alive and that the sky was the limit
for us.
We
sure had a lot of fun and packed a bunch in the short time that we had together.
We enjoyed camping and fishing (open and ice fishing) on a regular basis.
We would go out on dates usually once or twice month if not more.
Going out to dinner or renting a hotel room for the night.
In the winter times we used to treat ourselves to a hot tub spa that had
some set up outdoors. The best time
to go is while it is snowing out. We
went to allot of fairs, “old home days” at different towns, and t events
like FinnFest and the Bean Hole Bean Festival. We
went to quite a few concerts and saw some great shows. We enjoyed playing bingo
and don’t knock it if fun and pays. I
remember going to
Dover
New Hampshire
once to play with
Trina
and she won a five thousand dollar pot with two others.
The games around home usually had one hundred to five hundred dollar pots
witch was nothing to refuse for a couple hours of fun.
When we weren’t doing all that other stuff we would cuddle up at home
watching a movie with all our pets.
As far as pets she had three cats Pici /
Picard
, Raisa, and
Barkley
. I came with Codo my ferret.
We went and got Codo a playmate Podo. Yes I know the names… A few
months after we got Podo my ferret Codo passed away from old age. So we got
another ferret that we named
Perrin
. We
also had two bunnies Aili and Cronax. Add
in some fish and we had a houseful. We
had plans of getting a dog once we had a house.
If we could have done it I think she would have wanted to get a “Big
Cat” as well. I never seen her so
excited as when she got to feed a baby tiger at the fair one year.
I remember one of the fantasy daydreams we used to talk about was that
through each of our life times that we were soul-mates destined to find each
other to complete each other. Before
I met
Trina
I had always felt like there was something missing something more that
I needed. I had been traveling
thousands of miles most likely tens of thousands of miles meeting people and
living in different places and moving on.
On my wrist I had a tattoo of a druid rune script that “means in
search of love of a woman”. That
journey lead me back to
Maine
where our paths crossed and that longing feeling
went away. We completed each other
two halves made whole.
Forever
her love and warmth holds together my broken heart.
Until we meet again.
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